Getting Back to Normal

I am really not all that sure what normal is at this point. I am feeling okay and just relieved to be in remission. I am sure any of you that have had cancer, understand what a scary thing it is to say "in remission". I am thrilled but still leery. I am getting my strength back slowly but surely. I am able to do more each day. I do get out of breath very easily. The pulmonary doctor had prescribed symbcort to help with the damage to the lungs and esophagus but the insurance would not approve it for me. The doctor said there were two components in the symbcort I needed. So he has prescribed two inhalers for me and there is one component I
need in each one of them. Just means I have to use two inhalers each morning and night. A real pain!

I get dizzy when I have been sitting down and get up, or have been bending over and straighten up. Unsure what that is all about. Figure I am just not getting enough air in my lungs at that time. As long as I stay upright, I do pretty good. Do still cough some but not really a lot unless the humidity or pollution is high. And of course in Texas the humidity is normally high. I see the oncologist and have lab done on 6-23. Will ask him about it then. Will give the inhalers time to see if that helps also.

I am not able to stay outside very long or even if I get hot in the house I have a prickly sensation to my skin. The doctor says it is just all the toxins from all the meds working out of my system.
Hope it hurrys up!

I have been keeping my flower beds weeded, cleaning the house-what gets done-Leo still does the floors, vacuuming and mopping. I have been able to go shopping, grocery and cloths. Had to have some new clothes as nothing I had would fit. I am trying to gain about 5 or 10 pounds back. Shows too many wrinkles in my face and arms at this weight. Makes me look at least 80! Of course it takes me quite a few rests to get it done. But figure that is what it is going to take to get my strength to come back.

However, my hair is coming back! If any of you saw Garth Brooks on the CMA's that is exactly what mine looks like. It is like a burr haircut and just as grey as can be. Also very thin. But it is coming!

I guess my biggest problem is that I have been neglectful of my friends and family. I seem to have become withdrawn I guess. Everyone has been so wonderful to call and come by but I just don't seem to want to be around people or at times even talk on the phone. Or even do email. And as most of you know, this is not normal for me. Maybe some of you have been through this and can tell me what I can do to overcome it.

Okay enough for now. Thanks to all of you again for the prayers and concern. I love each and every one of you.